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Loneliness hits me in big Bed.

He boasts of luxury: a smirk of king, silky threads, full spreads, soft as a cat’s claws paws. Simpering of excess for my small self, I sink in.

How he’d bully my bare blanket back home, I think.

Lights glitter frantically down below, clamoring for attention, screeching like Cindy’s stepsisters, pick me, pick me! I am the brightest, yes, the brightest of them all!

I close the curtains.

Blackness cuts corners, crevices, and Loneliness hits me.

Loneliness, an old, familiar friend. I say friend, for he is too close to be merely acquaintance, too generous to be called enemy.

He hugs me tightly, too tight, I choke, sinking into harsh extravagance. I cry. My cheeks flush rubies and as the floods free… I am free also.

Loneliness, a messenger boy. Sent by the Universe.

To remind me: pleasure comes not with property, but passion ablaze. Luxury is lonely without love. And the greatest joy is humble, unassuming, earnest and simple.

Like the way a child laughs and laughs and laughs at nothing particularly funny. The way it becomes contagious. And how it hurts, and we can’t breathe anymore.

I laugh.

Loneliness leaves, Sleep seeps in.



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  • JasmineKyleSings
    December 18, 2012 at 9:29 AM

    Halfway lost between parting my lover and reuniting my family, I lay alone. Sinking into big Bed.
    This never leaves… Except your lover is your husband and your family are your children. Those moments you lay in your bed for me are full of guilt. Guilt I have not got out of bed to help with the morning routine and guilt because I KNOW I did not take enough time for my self…

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 18, 2012 at 9:39 AM

      Oh, dear Jasmine, please don’t feel guilty for taking time for yourself! We must serve ourselves first so that we may be best able to serve others.

      Wishing you ease of mind and much self-love! Blessings to you and your family.

      • JasmineKyleSings
        December 18, 2012 at 10:29 AM

        Well Sufey thanks for taking time to make me NOT feel guilty!! IT’s so kind of you!!! Loved your post and have a wonderful rest of your day too!

        • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
          December 18, 2012 at 10:40 AM

          Of course!! We all need those little reassurances, even the very best of mamas and musicians! 😉 Sending extra love! XO

  • Alex Katzen
    December 18, 2012 at 10:38 AM

    You are such a great writer! 🙂

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 18, 2012 at 11:04 AM

      Thank you for saying so Alex! I love reading what you have to say too, you’re such a fitspiration to me! xx

  • sakuraandme
    December 18, 2012 at 6:49 PM

    How beautifully written! I felt like I was in the bed! *smiling* …..Paula x

  • supernova
    December 18, 2012 at 10:26 PM

    Beautifully written by a beautiful person, Sufey. x

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 6:07 AM

      You are the beautiful one, thank you. I cannot express how much I appreciate your kind soul, always! <3

  • traveling crone
    December 19, 2012 at 7:23 AM

    Dearest Sufey, you are a laser show of light in my world where lonliness lays longer than one dark night of the soul. I let you in to help balance my dark with your light, thank you for doing your job. 🙂

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 8:07 AM

      Dearest Donnae, you are so full of light yourself! I love your gung-ho, “hell, I can do it!” attitude towards living your fullest expression of life!

      While we may be lonely somedays, we are never alone in our journey. Thanks for being here with me! <3

  • Bam's Kitchen
    December 19, 2012 at 8:00 AM

    Beautifully written. So when is your first book coming out? You are so creative. Take care, BAM

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 8:11 AM

      *BLUSH* Oh, I am just learning how to write! I need to study hard and fill up my brain before I have something worthy to share on that scale!

      Thank you for your constant kindness, you always make me smile! <3

  • James Browning
    December 19, 2012 at 10:54 AM

    beautifully written… your loneliness made alive in words for me to understand and feel.

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 5:28 PM

      Thank you for sharing the feeling with me, so that we may not be feeling alone! Blessings, James! <3

  • Healthy Glow Nutrition
    December 19, 2012 at 11:30 AM

    Such a beautifully written post Sufey! I want to wish you and your loved ones a wonderful and healthy holiday season. All the very best in the year to come and beyond! xo Éva

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 5:30 PM

      Wishing you all the joy in the world, you beautiful soul! Sending my love always! <3

      • Healthy Glow Nutrition
        December 19, 2012 at 7:43 PM

        Thank you my dear Sufey 🙂 Sending you lots of love and hugs <3
        Enjoy this wonderful time of year 🙂

  • petspeopleandlife
    December 19, 2012 at 12:43 PM

    Wonderfully written account of lonliness. Thought provoking and profound.

    • sufey (@SufeySuryananadi)
      December 19, 2012 at 5:32 PM

      Thank you kindly! I am grateful to have friends to share with, thank you for reading. Blessings! xx

  • artisticmilestone
    December 19, 2012 at 2:55 PM

    creatively written Sufey. I love your name, are you Japanese? In your background, you look like a pretty japanese geisha 🙂

  • Clark Kent
    December 19, 2012 at 9:25 PM

    Amazing! 😉

  • Naomi Baltuck
    December 22, 2012 at 1:04 PM

    Well done, Sufey! Very poetic and compelling.

  • Sunshine
    January 4, 2013 at 8:12 PM

    you even make lonely beautiful…thank you for sharing this gift. 🙂

  • nedtobin
    June 24, 2013 at 12:08 PM

    This is beautiful Sufey.

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