December 18, 2012 sufey

Lonely

Loneliness hits me in big Bed.

He boasts of luxury: a smirk of king, silky threads, full spreads, soft as a cat’s claws paws. Simpering of excess for my small self, I sink in.

How he’d bully my bare blanket back home, I think.

Lights glitter frantically down below, clamoring for attention, screeching like Cindy’s stepsisters, pick me, pick me! I am the brightest, yes, the brightest of them all!

I close the curtains.

Blackness cuts corners, crevices, and Loneliness hits me.

Loneliness, an old, familiar friend. I say friend, for he is too close to be merely acquaintance, too generous to be called enemy.

He hugs me tightly, too tight, I choke, sinking into harsh extravagance. I cry. My cheeks flush rubies and as the floods free… I am free also.

Loneliness, a messenger boy. Sent by the Universe.

To remind me: pleasure comes not with property, but passion ablaze. Luxury is lonely without love. And the greatest joy is humble, unassuming, earnest and simple.

Like the way a child laughs and laughs and laughs at nothing particularly funny. The way it becomes contagious. And how it hurts, and we can’t breathe anymore.

I laugh.

Loneliness leaves, Sleep seeps in.

lonely

Tagged: epiphany, joy, laughter, life, life lessons, lonely, love, luxury, realization, wealth

Comments (0)

  1. Halfway lost between parting my lover and reuniting my family, I lay alone. Sinking into big Bed.
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    This never leaves… Except your lover is your husband and your family are your children. Those moments you lay in your bed for me are full of guilt. Guilt I have not got out of bed to help with the morning routine and guilt because I KNOW I did not take enough time for my self…

  2. Dearest Sufey, you are a laser show of light in my world where lonliness lays longer than one dark night of the soul. I let you in to help balance my dark with your light, thank you for doing your job. 🙂

    • *BLUSH* Oh, I am just learning how to write! I need to study hard and fill up my brain before I have something worthy to share on that scale!

      Thank you for your constant kindness, you always make me smile! <3

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